random thought

so i mentioned, i have guy problems. im always thinking, "i wish i had a boyfriend like all my friends. theyre so happy and content."
heres a thought- why cant i be content with myself?
i realized the other day, im 20 years old. whats the point in a serious relationship if theres no future to it. i want to get married and have a family, but not for another 5 or 10 years. i realized i need to work on myself and becoming the person i want to be. only then should i worry about bringing a guy into the mix. i stumbled upon this quote from the movie "he's just  not that into you"
""maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future"
you cant be happy with another person until you're completely happy with yourself and the person you are.

the one person whos life is a bigger joke than yours. ME.

hey yall. to anyone whos reading this, welcome. my name is not really important but ill tell you everything else about me. im 19 years old, soon to be 20 and ive decided that my life, as funny as it is, should be shared. i was born in Orlando, FL in the 90's; a time where BackStreet was back, Brittany was sane, and GaGa was merely a noise little babies made. my brother was welcomed two years later and made quite a lasting effect on me when he pissed in my face...needless to say, 18 years later, hes still a little monster. i moved to south carolina at a young age and learned the meaning of a redneck- what i have, more or less, grown to be. i moved through middle school and high school, which were by far, the most awkward years of my life, without ever having a boyfriend for more than 2 weeks. thus began my guy problems. i graduated high school with top notch grades and a stellar gpa, went to the university of south carolina, (my dream school) partied my ass off and ended up back home 10 months later. now, in what would have been my sophmore year of college, i have taken off a semester to figure myself out and will be going to community college in the spring. currently, i am in spokane, washington, a huge change from my tight knit southern town, caring for 3 little girls and learning the true meaning of birth control. i have two more weeks left here and i swear everyday its something different. but, this is paying for my schooling and its a great experience. soo i suppose the next couple of weeks should give you some great entertainment... and if no ones reading this, at least ill be able to look back on myself and laugh.
xoxo Gossip Girl
haha sike
~tittle